indigo

everything goes from raspberry red

to deep down under

indigo blue

this immense roller coaster continuously

straining my breath     and simultaneously

forcing the air out of my lungs in shouts

into the void

(is this void devoid of your voice

or can I listen to you in my dreams?)

I hadn't felt so safe for so long

I’d forgotten how it felt

to believe in the arms put around me

I forget how we fell into place

and I wonder if we could ever fall out

once more    strangers

(is there somewhere outside

of this world where we can stop

on our journey to nowhere    anywhere?)

I feel scared

and this is what I was afraid of

how can I love without fear?